A’el Undomiel…

manusia punya banyak persamaan, sangat-sangat banyak..kenapa pula dikatakan manusia punya begitu banyak persamaan?

1. proses yang berlaku dalam badan manusia sama sahaja..rasa lapar, rasa sakit, rasa sedih, rasa pedih, rasa lah apa sahaja..sama saja apa yang dirasakan oleh semua manusia..apa mungkin ada manusia yang tak lapar?apa mungkin ada manusia yang tak penah merasa sakit?jika bukan fizikal sekalipun, mungkin hatinya..apa mungkin ada manusia yang tidak pernah merasa sedih?merasa pedih?..robot barangkali atau AI sebagaimana yang dibayang oleh steven speilberg..

2.semua manusia mahu kan kasih sayang, disayangi dan juga menyayangi..kalau ditonton sehingga habis apa yang dicari oleh David, adalah rasa sayang dari seorang ibu..jika robot bisa mencari sayang, apa mungkin manusia sebenarnya tak memerlukan kasih sayang? apa mungkin manusia lupa bahawa mereka bisa berkongsi rasa sayang? apa mungkin manusia lupa bahawa mereka perlu disayangi dan bisa menyayangi?

3.setiap manusia punya pegangan hidup yang bisa menolong mereka hidup..masa kecil, hidup nya dipimpin ibu dan ayah, semasa membesar, manusia memerhati, manusia belajar, manusia aplikasikan apa yang diperhatikan, apa yang dipelajari untuk membentuk diri mereka, untuk membawa diri mereka ke hadapan..untuk hidup..

4.ya..ada manusia yang ditarik nikmat untuk melihat, mendengar, berkata, tapi apa beza nya mereka dengan manusia yang lain?melihat..mereka melihat dengan mata hati yang saban hari mereka berdoa agar memperlihatkan perkara yang benar..mendengar, mereka bisa membaca, bisa melihat, bisa menghasilkan musik mereka sendiri,benarkah mereka tidak mendengar?jika setiap perkataan yang keluar dari mulut manusia hanya penuh dengan cercaan, penghinaan, kutukan..rugi kah manusia jika mereka tidak boleh berkata-kata?..

namun, dengan persamaan-persamaan ini, manusia berbeza dari segi iman dan akidah nya,hanya kerna dua perkara ini manusia berbeza, lain cara makan, lain cara berjalan, lain cara bercakap, lain cara berfikir, dan pelbagai lagi..

unik nya manusia..berbeza walau punya banyak persamaan..

satu hari bertambah,

satu minggu berlalu,

satu tahun menghilang,

satu angka meningkat..

sampai bila angka akan berubah….

sampai mata tertutup rapat?

sampai badan kaku tak bergerak?

sampai dada tidak lagi berombak?

sampai nyawa tiada lagi dengan badan?

satu masa akan datang,

tiada lagi angka meningkat

tiada lagi masa berubah..

tiada lagi azam, tiada lagi impian dan tiada lagi taubat…

satu masa yang akan datang…

Bintang malam katakan padanya

Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya

Embun pagi sampaikan padanya

Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

Tahukah engkau wahai langit

Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya

Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah

Hanya untuk dirinya

Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan

Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta

Walau hanya nada sederhana

Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan

to a friend…i really miss u…

1. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..really can’t wait..nak sangat-sangat jumpa semua-semua orang..

2. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..rindu my cats..rindu aisy,rindu inas,rindu iyad,rindu izz..

3. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak gi group base,rindu wantan mee ngan apple lychee..

4. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak rasa panas malaysia,nak rasa penat berjalan dlm cuaca panas malaysia..

5. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..pegi malls - ou,klcc,midvalley and all of the malls in kl..

6. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak keje,tak sabar nak keje..

7. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak gi tengok movies kat cinema,rindu giler nak gi cinema..

8. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..miss driving my car..my CBJ808..

9. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak pegi low yat plaza, nak beli dvd naruto,haven’t watch naruto for a long time..

10. can’t wait to go back to malaysia..nak gi tgk movie,have a picnic by the river, borak-borak, all in a day with u..i miss u..

Dihempas gelombang dilemparkan angin
Sekisah ku bersedih ku bahagia
Di indah dunia yang berakhir sunyi
Langkah kaki di dalam rencana Nya

Semua berjalan dalam kehendak Nya
Nafas hidup cinta dan segalanya

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

Bila mungkin ada luka coba tersenyumlah
Bila mungkin tawa coba bersabarlah
Karena air mata tak abadi
Akan hilang dan berganti

Bila mungkin hidup hampa dirasa
Mungkinkan hati rindukan Dia
Karena hanya dengan Nya hati tenang
Damai jiwa dan raga

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

1. All Blacks vs Canada..16th June 2007

2. My family to come..29th June until 4th July 2007

3. Finishing up the dissertation before the due date..24th July 2007

4. Brisbane..Bandar Sri Begawan..Kuala Lumpur..Home..

There are things in life you’ll learn and
In time you’ll see
Cause out there somewhere
It’s all waiting
If you keep believing
So don’t run, don’t hide
It will be all right
You’ll see, trust me

Just take a look through my eyes
There’s a better place
somewhere out there
Just take a look through my eyes
Everything changes
You’ll be amazed what you’ll find
If you look through my eyes

There will be times on this journey
All you’ll see is darkness
Out there somewhere daylight finds you
If you keep believing

So don’t run, don’t hide
It will be all right
You’ll see, trust me

All the things that you can change
There’s a meaning in everything
And you will find all you need
There’s so much to understand

Take a look through my eyes…

when something went wrong, people always look for someone for assessing blame,ok..let’s not look so far away, talking about people so generally when the people we really referring to is this circle of people that maybe have been with you all of your life, a quarter, half, 3/4 or maybe even a week and with all that period of knowing you, they claimed that they already "mastered" you, maybe more than you know your ownself. .what really happen when you so anticipated with what all these people think and "kindly disobeying" your own tought and feeling?

why in the world do these people keep saying that they know what is the best for you? why in the world do these people keep pushing you to walk the road that your brain and heart said no to? why in the world does it very hard for people to just understand that sometimes things that you wanted for yourself are the best things for you? why in the world do sometimes these people can’t just leave you with a peace of mind and continuously bugging you with what they think? why in the world does it very hard for people to let you to do the thinking and choosing what you want?

does all this questions really matters? the truth,when you are trying to avoid thinking what people are thinking about you, yet you are still questioning "why do people…?" forgive me if you do not agree with this, but the answer is simply because you will have people to put the blame on when things went wrong..and when that happened, you’ll say, "its all because you all said this is the best for me". won’t that be easier for you? really, does "the burden" gone when you directed the blame on others, yet in your heart, you knew you are the one who choose to follow what they asked you too?

do we, i mean us, who been given by The Almighty a brain to think and a heart to accompany the thinking process is really lacking of braincells and pulses to just follow what other people think? when something went wrong, when you think and feel you need to do something with your life, when you really think and feel you need to make some changes in your life, use the brain and heart to come out with options, things that you feel and think might suited you most through the wrong doing or changes..then asked for opinions, on the options that you have…develop the options from there. don’t just go and ask people "what should i do with my life?"..fulfilled your life with you, with the option that you choose, knowing the pros and cons that may come with that option and knowing you would be happy because it is what you wanted.

take responsibility on things that you did, don’t be afraid to say that you are wrong and don’t be afraid to say no to others..you know your ownself more than anyone, you know what you want and you know what will make your life happier or more misrable..choices and life are so synonymous that it can’t be apart, make the right decision with help of others, not by asking them, "what to you think best for me?" instead "can you help me with this?"..

"why say no to things that you want and why say yes to things that you don’t?"..be wise..

last saturday, went to auckland, for this festival fully dedicated to gather the malaysian community ere in north island of nz n to let the people of nz experienced and see the malaysian culture. konvoi 5 keta, kak ayu’s car but d driver is urs faithfully..,kak rina’s, kak shira’s, abg halim’s n kak fit’s. kumpul kat umah kak rina dlm pkl 8.30pg n bertolak dlm pkl 9pg..before this dh penah gi auckland tp naik bus. ni biler drive ke sana rasa sronok lak, lain experience nye..sronok gak driving kat negara org n using malaysian license..hehehe..if u r planning to come ere for holiday, u can use the malaysian license but it need to be translated to english, n u cld use the license for a year duration.

smpi kat auckland dlm pkl 11-11.15pg cam2..sempat lar tersesat2..smpi kat tapak festival dgr bdk2 tu performed dikir barat,hehehe…meremang bulu roma kjp,dh lama dh x dengar,d last time ms kelantanese students in twintech perfoming it, purely dikir n purely kelantan..parked d car, terus jln nak tgk wuts up next n nak tgk klu2 mknn nyer mmg to die for ke..next performance is dikir puteri, noraniza idris, bukan org nye,lagu nye aje…pusing nye pusing, mmm…nasib baik lar x ader teringin nak makan pape, klu aucklanders kata mahal mknn yg jual kat situ, ape lagi kitaorg hamiltonese ni..nasib baik mmg dh target d foods will be quite expensive, ada bwk nasi goreng pastu kak ayu plk teringin makan beef lasagne, so dia dh prepared it since d day b4..ajak reramai, bentang kain, makan..hehehe..

sambil makan tu, tetiba nampak ader mat salleh ni lalu ngan anak dia, baju kemeja, seluar slack n most attracting..kain pelekat dia pakai mcm samping, rasa mcm bangga skit pun ader, ppl appreciating our things, our culture..dia pun pki mcm x ader rasa kekok pun..btw, it looks very nice on him pun..abis mkn, yg paling mencabar nak crk tempat nak solat,hehehe…nak ke auckland uni’s college, jauh sgt plk..nak amik air sembahyang pun satu hal gak..kak fit kata guna disable toilet, besar skit toilet nyer, kat transport station..like opposite of tapak festival tu. pas amik air sembahyang, igt2 nak solat kat station tu tp kompas nyer tertinggal dlm keta, patah blk kat keta, nasib baik kat situ ader tmpt mcm klu turun kat ampang park lrt station, naik ke atas before exiting to the road, mcm tu lar, tp ni komuter nyer station..solat berdua ngan kak ayu kat situ..

abis mkn, more performances, boria, zapin, inang, indian dances, chinese, malay wedding ceremony n so many more n lastly we decided to go for a ride wif a free bus around auckland, smpi blk kat tapak festival tu,last performance n org pun dh x ramai, mkn pineapple ice-cream n bertolak blk, seblum blk ke hamilton, stop kat this place name otahuhu, ramai yg nak beli kicap kipas udang, skali kedai yg nak pegi tu dh tutup, pegi kedai lain,kicap tu x ader..x ader rezeki..pastu stop jap kat bp connect, diaorg nak minum coffee n me, hot choc, best sgt2..masa tu dh almost 7pm, smpi kat hamilton dlm 9.15-9.30pm, smpi umah, never tot dat i wld felt dat tired,sgt2…d road wasnt so bad, blum winter, so not slippery,alhamdulillah lar…everything went well,pegi n balik..

duduk kat luar negara ni bak kata pepatah lar, hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, baik lagi di negeri sendiri..so, when attending the festival, rasa mcm cant wait to go home, hamilton is a nice place, an excellant place, bak kata sean, kak shira’s house owner, dia dr south africa..tp entah..biar lar hujan batu pun,asal x jauh dr org2 yg kita sayang..feel perfect enough dah..

since a few weeks back the only thing that i’ve been done is going back and forth between the flat and my new "nesting place", the end corner, of level 2  at the central library..why?because i need to finish this five books on web-based portfolios and portfolios itself..again the question will be why do u have to go to the library?pinjam,balik baca kat umah lar…heaven sgt2 if i could do that..unfortunately for me the only books available for this respective subjects is on the ebrary..meaning?all the books are electronic access books..kena view thru www..nice…mmm..

pastu plk nak mcm tambah spices on this thing, turn up at the library at around 9 am sometimes 10 am, but when i really wanna go back..hujan yg turun bagaikan mutiara..thank u Allah, di atas rahmat yg dikurniakan kepada kami umat mu..n usually it wont stop until around 6pm or 8pm..payung mana?beli 2 payung..2-2 patah,bahana angin winter..hehe…pastu biler gi warehouse ke,npk payung tp mcm ader rasa sedih lg terigt payung2 yg penah berjasa dulu..neway,d main thing is perut berkeroncong..dlm library ni bleh bwk mknn sebnarnyer tp malas lar, biler dh mkn mesti nak air..nanti sekjp2 nak ke toilet, sejuk dlm library ni..

kenapa aelya membebel?aelya lapar..nak balik..sejuk..mata penat..otak penat..sebnar nyer?aelya nak tido..mmmmm….